One of the tasks in the course on spiritual development I’m taking this month was about trying to associate a colour with one of the other participants in the course, and then tell this person about your associations. A few days ago I got this message:
The color I associate with you is yellow, wonderfully warm yellow with hints of gold. I also get a positive and very creative feeling, combined with a strong desire for self-fulfillment. You have just discovered your inner sun and you let it shine and touch everyone you meet.
I was very happy about the message, and I particularly felt that this woman’s words about my creativity felt so good right now. As a child I dreamt of becoming a writer, and I have indeed been a textbook writer for quite a few years, but last week I embarked on a new project: writing a novel. Together with Miranda I went on a writers’ retreat for some days, a bit scared about finally awarding myself the time to start writing. What if I wouldn’t have anything to say?
But I shouldn’t have worried. The words just came to me, and in those few days, in those beautiful surroundings, I wrote about 25 pages of text – loving every minute of it. Of course it’s easier because I utilize my own experiences, feeling and thoughts to a great extent, but I was very pleased to note that I had no problems leaving the autobiographical parts and invent things that have never happened either. I’m now looking forward to a long summer where I will squeeze in novel writing whenever I have some time off – from children, bathing, cooking and mowing the lawn. It feels just like falling in love.
Ever since I was a little child, I’ve been interested in things that we cannot see. My grandmother used to tell me stories about strange things (some spooky and some wonderful) that had happened to people in our family. I’m not psychic or anything, but I believe – and hope! – that, for instance, death isn’t just a dead end. A few times in my life I’ve been to see psychics, not really because I want someone to tell me about my future (as many other people who visit such a person do), but mainly because I’ve been curious to see if I would be able to get in touch with someone from the other side. Once I was told that two of my four children, my oldest (Miranda) and my youngest, have special gifts.
I often hear people say that they cannot believe in anything that can’t be proven, and I fully respect this opinion. In my world, however, I don’t want proof of everything. To me, affirming what I cannot see – without really knowing – brings magic to life. Over the years, I’ve spent quite a lot of time reading about spirituality, in different areas. I’ve also taken courses, in crystal healing and reiki healing, the latter proving very effective in many situations (especially when I cannot sleep, and when my kids complain about growing pains in their legs). During my fifteen years working in Academia, I usually kept quite about this spiritual interest of mine; surrounded by researchers to whom evidence is everything.
Working as a freelance nowadays, I have no such problems any longer, and this month I’m going to take a new step in my spiritual development. Tomorrow, I will start following a distance course where we’ll practice a lot of different things related to strengthening one’s intuition and spiritual abilities. The course will run for a month, and besides practicing, I will have the opportunity to chat – via social media – to other course participants and our course leader. At the end of the month I will also take a whole-day course, and that night there will be a private seance with the course leader. I’m so excited!